Hmm.. That's strange. I have been working hard, looking over my mistakes and trying very carefully to avoid them in my practicals. But I seem to forget about other minor details and it has cost me several marks. Yes, several might not seem significant, but it might have a chain effect on other questions. Besides, I don't like the feeling of having known I lost marks. Its demoralising for me. Never mind, I think I have put in my best and I should score for both papers even with those minor mistakes..

I played soccer again after GP remedial. Soccer has become part of my life. Betting on matches, watching them and playing it. The feeling is so good when every time you play soccer, you know you are always improving. The feeling is even better when you score a wonderful goal. Even an ordinary goal would put me on cloud 9. Today was a bit different. We played in our uniforms since we didn't bring shirts along. It was disgusting and smelly but no one took notice of it, such is the power of soccer. I was worried my pants would split if I stretched out my legs too far, so I was pretty conservative today. Haha! Sounds like a girl in minis playing soccer.

My final hurdle is due in 1 week. Am I prepared for it? Well.. I am not sure. Really.. Periodic table and food chem is still bothering me and I haven't had much practice on physics and maths. I really wonder if I can jump across this hurdle for a personal record. I don't have any particular course I wish to take in university, but I'm my interest lies in a course which doesn't need 3As. Still, this is a personal challenge. I always want the best for myself. It's like a milestone in life. This is something that I can tell my children, my grandchildren and myself. What's more.. when I ascend to heaven one day, I will not be in the least worried that my achievement book is empty.

I am beginning to wonder how my life will change when I enter commandoes next year. After listening to so many accounts of life there, I still have mixed feelings about it. It sounds exciting and fun to the fit, but it sounds scary to the unfit. And unfortunately I belong to the latter but I still find it something like a blessing. It is an oppotunity to go out of my comfort zone and try things I would never have tried in my life. Life is short, but there are so many things one can do. I want to try as many things as possible, as well as experience the different aspects of life. God put us here not just to live and die. He gave us the gift of life so that we can enjoy the splendours of life; the excitement, the extraordinary, the challenging. Army is a learning journey, but before that, there is some work needed to be done on my fitness.