I really do feel like talking to Sis. But I can't find any starting point. We haven't had a talk for ages. We have been acting like strangers. It's difficult to recall how things turned out this way. Perhaps we have been busy the past few years and we are always hiding in our rooms that our relationship is moving apart. She has many problems. I can tell her from her msn nick and her conversation with mum. She is just like those typical troubled Sec1 girl who is in her puberty. It's not just about puberty I guess, it could also be the pressue and stress of studies. She didn't do well in her exams and my mother is unhappy. Sis tries not to let it affect her and even tries to assure mum. I can see that things are not what it seems to be. I can sense that deep down in sis is an ocean of troubles. I want to help her and yet not lose my focus on As. I want to focus on As and yet help her.

It's difficult to talk to her. Or should I say, to start talking. It's like an acquaintance asking you about private matters. That's how far apart we siblings are. Maybe our age gap is too big. Or maybe the problems lies with me. Our history of childish quarrels is the cause of our gap. If not, we might be closer now. *sigh*