Fate didn't let me post during the last 3 weeks. Maybe it wanted me to have a full perspective of life in SISPEC, before letting me record it in my blog. Well, things are really different after some time. It is just a matter of getting used to it. I remember being really unmotivated to do anything. My only great comfort is my BMT buddy being my buddy again in SISPEC. Talk about fate. It certainly helped me settle down faster. Life has become much more hectic and demanding. That is the downside. The 'upside' is that military life has become more interesting and challenging. It is here that I gain military knowledge as well as build up my fitness. Intense training does work wonders. I shall not go into detail.

Time passes faster now than in BMT. Sometimes I wonder what life would be like if I hadn't chose to do my BMT so soon, or if I hadn't enlisted in the commando formation. How I wish life would be just like a computer game. I would love to save my life and try a different route to see how it would be like.

Gradually I find myself changing. No, I am still as childish. I don't deny that. I will always be. The change has got to do with how I do and see things. This change is so gradual that I won't even notice if I had not sat down for a while and think back on the things I have done. Even till now, the change is so vague that I can't tell what exactly it is. However, there is something different about me. For sure.

I have lost touch with many things. The people around me, the things I love to do, the places I love to go and the things I love to read. I long for some time of my own to revive them. That time will come soon and I am really looking forward to it. Oh, how precious time is!