I was thinking of my university and career path the last few days. I realise the decisions I make now might affect me for the rest of my life. I am really at the crossroads of my life now, deciding which way is the most ideal yet practical for myself. One major problem is that I am not sure of my limits. I am worried of over-stretching myself as well as giving myself too much pressure. I am so used to studying when I like and at a relaxed pace. For me, it is studying smart.

I have long wanted to apply for a Law/Business double degree. Getting both degrees would be perfect for my career. But I feel that I might be overly ambitious. I always am, that is why I take extra care to consider whether it falls within my capabilities. In this case, I am afraid to try. I would rather wait till I have completed my first year and then, see if I can cope, before applying. So this issue is settled.

Working in a small firm has its plus points. The bonds between the people would be stronger and one's capabilities more recognised. Working in a large firm however would also mean a wider range of opportunites and exposure. The main reason why I want to apply for the SIA scholarship is that I will have many opportunities to go overseas. I would like to see the world again and I believe in doing it while working. Saves a whole lot of time. Unfortunately, SIA scholarship isn't so easy to obtain. This is especially so when I don't have 'S' papers. Seriously, I never thought I would have done so well. In Year 1 when I was supposed to go for a scholarship preparatory programme interview, I skipped it. Reason being I never thought I was of that calibre. That later became one of my biggest regrets. So I learnt, never ever underestimate myself. I wouldn't have lost anything if I went for that interview. Gosh, what was I thinking then? And now, I am having problems applying for my dream. Whew!