Learning Spree

I finally realised why my 2nd year of NS is so dull. There is nothing to look forward to! And there is no input into the value of my life. I realised it today, when I lifted my heavy butt and went for my 1st driving lesson. At last! Not only that. I'm taking up French, or Japanese. Most probably french. And I'm looking up the Ivy League schools as well as researching all the possible courses there are. It is a huge world out there, but I've only been confined to the boundaries of this little red dot. I suddenly feel very small when I think of all the things there is to learn out there. I feel stupid when I think of all the things I don't know. What's the big deal of having a good certificate? It is what you have and others don't that matters. For that, I have decided to learn things that I would never get the chance to learn after these 10 months.

It is just like playing The Sims. I like to make that guy learn all there is to learn before finding a job. When all his stats are maxed out, it increases his value and job promotion chances. This is a game. But in real life, I get so much more out of the knowledge I acquire. In short, it is self-satisfaction. Zi4 ai4. Self-love(direct translation). It is also a break from the fruitless pursues I have been involved in.