Again

You know something is wrong when I start to blog everyday. Nothing is wrong. I just have the urge to blog......
Well, ok. Something is a little wrong. Just a little. There is reconstruction work going on inside me. I can actually feel it. Every morning, I wake up feeling different. It is nothing negative. On the contrary, it makes me feel better as a person. Before I sleep every night, I think of many things.
Things like:
I should have done this.
I shouldn't have done this.
Should I?
What if?
And all the scenarios start popping up in full motion picture right in front of my eyes. After viewing all the "videos", I decide on the course of action, AND THEN I fall asleep. I suspect this is the reason why I wake up feeling better. I resolved a major ? the night before. BUT, there is this one ? that I have never been able to solve, up till now.
With a heavy heart, I'm off to look for answers again. Good night.