busy bee

I'm not busy. But everyone else is. It is so sad that relationships loosen because of work. To start with, we weren't even put on Earth to work like slaves. And for what? Money? Money is important. I always dream of building my dream house. That needs money. But there cannot be one goal in life. It is defying the meaning of life. There should be multiple goals, each having different weights in different points of life. Maintaining good relationships is one that should always be somewhere near the top. Humans are social creatures and we should do just that. Socialising as in interacting and not just physically present with other human bodies. How is it that some people can study alone everyday and not feel empty inside? They might, just that I don't know. So then, what is the purpose of studying so hard? To be successful and earn lots of money which leads to further isolation. More time spent on work and the vicious cycle continues.

I can't do that. Life is like the game of Sims. To interact with everything around, people especially. Work is never always more important than relationships. People say that I am very free when in fact, I make it a point to put down everything to talk. Just a short talk with a good friend is enough to brighten up the day. Why darken a day with work then? 24 hours a day. Is that not enough to complete whatever work that is dumped on us. If the answer is a positive, it must be a really dark and sad life. Friends, embrace the people around you.

I am still restrictive and careful. To the extent that on hindsight, I always agree that I should not be like that. I want to be honest and open with my interactions but I just cannot do it. There are only a few people whom I can talk to without any reservations. Maybe I should westernise myself and stop feeling shy or worried about whatever outcome. To take things as they come is a virtue. Right now, I am restricting the things that might come. BOTH the good and the bad. I know that I am missing out more good than bad.

To be HONEST, it is all right if no one understands my blabberings today, it is a personal wake up call. One of the unticked items on my checklist to maturity.

Saying 'I love you' is the hardest thing to do. Demonstrating it is easier and more sincere.